Gutters Full of Rain...

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I'm kind of having a down day. I don't know why, life doesn't really suck right now...I have great friends, I'm almost ready to graduate, the company I work part time for just asked for my updated resume and references (hopefully they will hire me full time), I'm happy with myself. But today I'm kind of sad....well maybe not sad just blah.

I guess I'm kind of questioning whether or not there is someone out there for me, you know. Being alone for the rest of my life is my biggest fear and sometimes I wonder if I really am going to be alone. This is such a girl thing to think about. I wonder if guys think about his at all....probably not. But anyways, I'm obviously not going to meet anyone in Maryville because I only have a month and a half left here. But I just wonder in general if there is someone out there. Sometimes (like right now) I think that there isn't and I'm going to be doomed to wander the planet alone for the rest of my life. It's just something that's in the back of my mind a lot.

I always hear people say that there is someone out there for everyone but they are obviously wrong. Here is why....I know people who never get married. I know people who are alone and have been alone all of their lives. It's really not that uncommon, granted some of them choose to be alone but some of them don't...they just can't seem to meet anyone. What if I end up like that. I'll be like the weird cat lady (except I won't have any cats because I'm allergic). Weird.

Oh well, I guess I'll just have to be patient. I can't really do anything about it right now because I'm stuck in Maryville for another month and a half. I guess I'm just going to have to work my ass off after I graduate to just get out there and meet people. I guess I really don't have a problem meeting people, we'll just have to see.

posted by Linz @ 8:47 PM