Gutters Full of Rain...

Comfort Zones

Here I am....I'm about to graduate. I'm realizing more and more how scary and how sad that really is. All the people that I've known for the last five years are going to be gone in about a month and a half. The comfort zone that I have become used to is going to melt to nothing. I'm going to be thrown into a professional world where I will have to be responsible and real and that scares me a little bit.

I wonder what I'm going to do to meet people. I'm single right now and I kindof like it that way because it means that I'm not tied down to any commitments when I leave here. But what about after I graduate. What if I decide that I want to meet someone. How do I do that??? It is so easy to do here in Maryville....all you have to do is walk up and be like hey aren't you in my such and such a class or where do I know you from. The reason for this is because most likely you know that person from somewhere.

Things that scare me about graduation:

1. Leaving my beloved friends.
2. Regretting that I missed something.
3. Not being able to find a job.
4. Not being smart enough for the professional world.
5. Missing my friends.
6. Not having a life anymore (what will I do on the weekends??? All my friends will be in Kansas City, Maryville, or Springfield)
7. How will I handle getting up in the morning?
8. What if I can't find a job?
9. What if my work isn't good enough or creative enough for the pros?
10. Loosing the wonderful freedom I've enjoyed for five years (I'm going home to live with my parents and earn money so I can move to San Diego).

Well I'm sure there's more but I don't want to think about it anymore......more later. I have a long homework filled night ahead of me and I'm sure I will want a break to rant and rave a little.

posted by Linz @ 3:54 PM