Gutters Full of Rain...

Butterflies

Oh to being off my medicine. I get to drink now YAY. That means that this weekend is going to be fabulous. I'm not going to plan anything though because that means that it won't be fabulous.

Anyways, about the butterflies....they are in my stomache. Yes, I am nervous. I want to ask someone something but I'm nervous about what their answer will be. It isn't a life changing question, it isn't an enormously important question I just want to ask it and I'm afraid of what they will say.
Sometimes I wonder why asking people things makes me so nervous. I get nervous even to ask my own friends if they want to hang out. I guess I get nervous because if they say no then that means I'm left with nothing to do. I don't like to be alone because being alone allows the wheels in my mind to start turning and then I start over analyzing things. I get nervous to ask questions in class because what if people think I'm stupid (the color of my hair doesn't help I guess). I guess that is my biggest fear is sounding stupid. Who was it that said, "it is better to keep your mouth shut and let them think you are stupid then to open it and remove all doubt." I shouldn't get so nervous about stupid things like that but I do.
I guess that I worry to much about what other people think of me. I'm not saying that I care what they think....I just worry about it sometimes. I don't want people tho hate me or think I'm stupid. I guess I worry about that. I wonder why.
Well the point is that I'm nervous and I shouldn't be. It's just a stupid question. If you have any advice about how to ask a question that makes you nervous please send it my way. Thanks.

posted by Linz @ 7:00 PM